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Sleepless nights

When I first encountered generalised anxiety disorder I was not sleeping and I was not eating. I was in a terrible state every night with my irrational thoughts keeping me awake. 

Fast forward 6 years and I am experiencing sleepless nights again but because of my rational thoughts. My rational worries are keeping me awake as subconsciously I cannot shift them. I am not actively thinking about my concerns but my body and mind is reacting as if I am. 

I never thought I would be back here again and even though the concerns are legitimate I am reliving that part of my life. 

I am in a good mental state, for the most part and although I have had concerns and worries since coming off the medication this has not happened before now. 

I really hope this improves soon as this is no way to function no matter the root cause. 

BCL says

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