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I cried today

Firstly, Happy New Year all, I hope you had a good one. Secondly, have you noticed that I’ve written a fair few blog posts lately? I only write when I’m struggling. 

Today I cried, things that stress me out were brought to the surface today and usually I can cope with it, today I couldn’t. Christmas and New Year is a weird time for me, the time off from my normal routine throws me out of whack and first I get bored, then I get irritable and then I get down. I’m not depressed, I’m in a state of mind where I feel strange and my routine keeps this weird state of mind at bay. 

Mental health never truly goes away and it’s periods like this where I realise this and it does make me sad. I’m a lot better than I was and I am coping the best way I can but it’s still there, it always will be. 

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