Suffering from GAD has changed me. Before the medication, before the anxiety itself, I was different. Today, off medication, I don’t see things the way I used to. I’m colder emotionally, I rationalise life in such a way that it can’t hurt me or play on my mind. I realise now this is my new coping mechanism.
This doesn’t mean I’m cold hearted, I have a big heart and I feel all the emotions when I allow myself to. I’m still the biggest empath out there, the kind that cries whenever someone cries in a film or a TV show, even if I’ve seen the same scene hundreds of times, it still effects me the same. I like this change, I never was a logical person and I feel it’s an important way to be. I’m also no longer scared of the dark, horror movies or true crime, in fact I laugh at horror movies and I am obsessed with watching true crime. This makes me feel empowered if anything and I do have a better quality of life, more joy.
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